Funny Boy

"No more would i step out of that room and make my way down the porch steps to the altar, a creature beautiful and adored, the personification of all that was good and perfect in the world... "

"I thought of bride-bride and all those elaborate ceremonies I had invented, how i had thought that weddings could not be anything but magical occasions. How distant that time seemed, a world I had left far behind..."

"The araliya tree was bare of its flowers. They, too, must have been stolen.I was stuck then by a bitter irony. these araliya flowers must be offered to some god as a pooja by the very people who had plucked them, in order to increase their chances of a better life in the next birth."

Funny Boy, Shyam Selvadurai.

:(
cos certain things in life seems to work in an annoying pattern. and life goes on in the strangest way, moves ahead in the weirdest direction.

People come and leave our lives too often.

Much awaited nightmare... finally over...

and... along with the best wishes for the tangible achievements, i silently realise what a failure i am in life all together.... with the things that really matter... and certainly cannot congratulate myself for that!

07-12-2007

Someday... Somewhere...

Under a lover's sky
I'm gonna be with you
And no one's gonna be around
If you think that you won't fall

Well just wait until, 'till the sun goes down...

let me hold the hand of a heart that is only mine, whose colors can be felt and whose fragrance can be touched even in the times of darkness and conflict.

let me have faith in this world and be able to rise against the prejudiced to dream and become who i want to be.

let me not have anything to prove or logic to justify to let the heart feel what it feels when it does.

let me have the power to embrace the goodness in this callous world just for the short time, until i'm gone for good.

-Osh

I cant get enough of this song....

and there's absolutely no other place on earth...

I guess, some things....

are best left unspoken.

That this is who i am, and its all that i could be...

It seems the more we talk
The less I have to say
Let’s put our differences aside

Wanted to make you proud
But I just got in your way
I found a place that I hide
Now everything is changing
But I still feel the same

We’re running out of time
What do I have to do?
To try to make you see?
That this is who I am
And its all that I can be

I tried to find myself
Looking inside your eyes
You were all that I was meant to be

There must be something else
Behind all the lies
That you have lead me to believe
Now everyone is saying
That I should find a way
To leave it all behind

What do I have to do
To try to make you see
That this is who I am
And its all that I can be

What do I have to do
To try to make you see
Trying to be like you
isn’t good enough for me

I wont let you go
I wont let you down
I wont give you up
Don’t you give up on me now

What do I have to do
To try to make you see
That this is who I am
And its all that I can be

What do I have to do
To try to make you see
Trying to be like you
isn’t good enough for me
What do I have to do
To try to make you see

What should i do;

when i feel sad... as sad can get?

I have a passion for a few things in life

1. Music
2. Cars
3. Military
4. and a lot of dreams related to them.

Hmmmmmmmmmmm

Sigh. Very informative posts.

After a looooooooong time.

My Best Friend's Wedding: Say a little prayer for u

Googletalk

Seriously needs an 'appear offline' function!!!

Missing It...

Every bit of it.
So 'Go, spin me around
under the folding branches'
and say it'll be ok...

Ross Copperman: Found You.

You cannot love two people at the same time. When u think about it, one of them, is either a painful memory of the past or a fascination of the future to become. It's not love.

?

Do you get attracted to the one you love? Or... Love the one you are attracted to?
Looks like the latter has more chances of survival.

"...Oh and when you held my hand
I knew that it was now or never
Those were the best days of my life..."

One of the mails read:

4 Things we cannot recover:

1. The stone, after the throw
2. The word, after it is said
3. The occasion, after the loss
4. The time, after it's gone.

At the end of the day,

who do i blame? who do i turn to?
when it hurts...

Couldn't fight the moonlight.

Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your heart
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight.

Ooooooooooh Irresistable! Peugeot 908

Before Sunrise

Celine
I like to feel his eyes on me when I look away...

But then the morning comes, and we turn back into pumpkins, right?

Well, who says relationships have to last forever?


Jesse
Alright, alright, think of it like this: jump ahead ten, twenty years, okay? And you're married. Only your marriage doesn't have that same energy that it used to have, you know? You start to blame your husband. You start to think of all those guys you met in your life and what might have happened if you'd picked up with one of them, right? Well I'm one of those guys, that's me! So think of this as time travel. From then to now to find out what you're missing out on. See, what this really could be is a gigantic favor to both you and your future husband to find out that you're not missing out on anything; I'm just as big a loser as he is, totally unmotivated, totally boring, and you made the right choice and you're really happy.

I know happy couples... but I think they lie to each other!

I don't know, I think that if I could just accept the fact that my life is supposed to be difficult. You know, that's what to be expected, then I might not get so pissed-off about it and I'll just be glad when something nice happens.

Do you believe in reincarnation?

Jesse: Do you believe in reincarnation?
Celine: Yeah. Yeah, it's interesting.
Jesse: Yeah, right. Well, most people, you know, a lot of people talk about past lives and things like that, you know? And even if they don't believe it in some specific way, you know, people have some kind of notion of an eternal soul, right?
Celine: Yeah.

Jesse: OK, well this was my thought: 50,000 years ago, there are not even a million people on the planet. 10,000 years ago, there's, like, two million people on the planet. Now there's between five and six billion people on the planet, right? Now, if we all have our own, like, individual, unique soul, right, where do they all come from? You know, are modern souls only a fraction of the original souls? 'Cause if they are, that represents a 5,000 to 1 split of each soul in the last 50,000 years, which is, like, a blip in the Earth's time. You know, so at best we're like these tiny fractions of people, you know, walking...I mean, is that why we're so scattered? You know, is that why we're all so specialized?

Celine: I don't know. Wait a minute, I'm not sure...I don't...
Jesse: Yeah, hang on, hang on. It's a, it's a totally scattered thought. It...which is kind of why it makes sense.

It hurts to know that...

I can't fight the moonlight. Or anything else for that matter. and that's the truth.

Life...

I have forgotten how it feels like to be in it. and i can't remember how big hopes and dreams felt like.

My favourite favourite video in the whole wide world!!

Uh... i think LeAnn Rimes is Canadian too. Atleast she looks like one. Hehe :) Ane I really dunno why i love this video, the song AND the movie soooooooooooo much.. Its one of those videos that you can never get enough of!

NellyF @ da Diana Concert :)

I know I sound like a 15 year old, but, Nelly Furtado seriously ROX!!!!

Esmee Singing Unwritten

I'm scared

really really scared.

ya ya. my blog's getting mysterious by the day!

System Testing at its best!

I'm confused now. 3 Aug is gone when i have time 'until' that. and i even have -1 days 'remaining'. Hehe.

Oh god it finally came.

now i should be able to seriously rest in peace :) and officially start on work with a straight head :)

BUT. depends. i have butterflies in my head, trains in my stomach and breathing had officially stopped since midnight. but. no buts. need to pretend to remain calm.

After Everything...

Hurt is the only thing left.

Please...

let me hold the hand of a heart that is only mine, whose colors can be felt and whose fragrance can be touched even in the times of darkness and conflict.

let me have faith in this world and be able to rise against the prejudiced to dream and become who i want to be.

let me not have anything to prove or logic to justify to let the heart feel what it feels when it does.

let me have the power to embrace the goodness in this callous world just for the short time, until i'm gone for good.

-Osh

Speechless.

.... and will be for a long time.

Nice! Merc CLS 350.

ane Ammmooooooooooooooo

Merc CLS 350. Maaaaarai. I saw one in the evening... dawasama hari :) :) :)















Oh n did i forget to mention it was a Absolutely HOT guy driving it! All the right reasons to go head-turning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Big girls don't cry huh?

Then i must be reaaaaaally small.

It was never me. It is not me. and it will never BE me.

Or... is it ?

Never explain yourself to anyone. Because the person who likes you doesn't need it. The person who dislikes you wont believe it.

People break your heart, regardless of how careful you are with theirs... all the drama and emotion... it's all a big lie in the end... n you lose the number of times you've been taken for granted. Funny how I shouldn't be surprised, n its just how life works...

Will it ever happen?

No, I don't think so.

Cant fight the moonlight. used to love this song!

Under a lovers' sky
Gonna be with you
And noone's gonna be around
If you think that you won't fall
Well just wait until
Til the sun goes down

Underneath the starlight - starlight
There's a magical feeling - so right
It'll steal your heart tonight

You can try to resist
Try to hide from my kiss
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your heart
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
No, you can't fight it
It's gonna get to your heart

There's no escape from love
Once a gentle breeze
Weaves it's spell upon your heart
No matter what you think
It won't be too long
Til your in my arms
Underneath the starlight - starlight
We'll be lost in the rhythm - so right
Feel it steal your heart tonight

THE FUTURE. NOW.

ane mata beeeeeeeeeee. Out of this WORLD!

Jaguar CXF. A Head turner.















This pic is sooooooooo happening :)















Style.















Attitude.

For a moment i thought...

one of my dreams were gonna come true.

wow.

but why? why a rear like that??

check the all related links in here and came across this good one with nice pics (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XyGWfqNvxeM) but unfortunately, its too embrassing to blog it cos there's AKON singing 'don't matter'.... if you look closely, there's a slide transition with a heart! ane ei danne ne! hehe :)

so many ppl seem to think it looks like the Aston Martin.. yea a bit. but this has a real 'nasty' look to it. which is nice :P

Jags to BM's? I shall find out

hmmmmmm... dont think i still have gotten it right... damn! the one im looking for is more agressive looking!

oh in the so called 'Engine of the year awards' apparently BMW 3-litre Twin Turbo won it for the year 2007.

source: http://www.ukintpress.com/engineoftheyear/

Titanium Silver Metallic.

nothing like da 'liquid silver' for Jags. but nice :D











this view looks like a macho-looking guy standing against a wall wearing a cap!! yaaaaaa me and my wacko thoughts !

Black Beauty: BMW 535i Sedan

even matches my blog! :D

Not the same thing.

it seems impossible to forget. can only try not to remember.

I can make you smile

the waves yearn the shore and the sky long for the moon. but at one hallucinated corner called the horizon, away from the rough sand and the crescent moon, they meet. only until the break of dawn.

Just be good... when im gone.

people you love the most, hurt you the most.

that's obvious ne. cos they are the only people who matter to you. n its is only their actions that have an effect in you life.

'Don't let them hurt you' doesn't work. cos it is not a choice.

3rd Year revolution

People become soooo conceptually different and ethically mistaken when they cm to 3rd year… others extend help only if it doesn’t seem like a threat to their well being… no matter how close friends are, they turn to people they can get some insight knowledge from, n never even bother to tell you, even if they share everything else. It happens during a certain phase, things are over and everyone is back to normal like nothing ever happened...

RESPECT to my friends who have more values in life than that. Stay the same!

Radio shows

its really a nice feeling. listening to radio shows in the morning to start the day. or even when going home after work. n you need some nonsense in your life. Nash on sun fm did a fabulous job on that... now looks like Eric Stone is following his foot steps in the morning doing a really great job at sun fm. i prefer Eric's craziness to Dishan Wickramarathne's philosophies..

Logic is..

the art of going wrong with confidence :D

are you drunk??

nah... its just the real me. yet to be discovered..

Breathing.

I'm finding my way back to sanity, again
Though I don't really know what
I am gonna do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back in the arms of grace

I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I am looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God, which one's you?
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me
One more time

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the scraps to fall
Off your table to the ground
I just want o be here now

Strange

We make them cry, who care for us.
We cry for those who never care for us.
We care for those who will never cry for us.

Have I covered all the combinations?

Grand Sale of Honesty!!!

Building cost: Priceless
But will be sold @ 50 c. (market price)

Only the honest concept will be sold. Owner migrating from the mind set.

Current condition: 80% of the time (Dream ON if u were expecting a 100!)

Warranty period: Until purchaser realizes how difficult it is to be honest in this world and decides to give it away.

Its very hard to live in a world where your values are very different from those of the people around you.

Whoaaaaaaaa!!!!! Awesome stuff!

One life. One FINAL dream...

cos the rest are all shattered.

from the Movie, Notebook.

"they didn't agree on much, they rarely agreed at all.
they fought all the time and challenged each other everyday,
but in spite of their differences,
they had one thing in common.
they were crazy about each other."

Silent Screaming

Take me out of this world
Bury me in a chest
Hold me away from the burning sun
Give me the light
Lord, mend this heart
Awaken my soul.

03-05-2007

Crap Countdown...

10. I promise.
9. It's ALL about the OTHER person.
8. Forever and always.
7. I love you BOTH.
6. If you love someone let them go.
5. With you, till the end.
4. Give me some time and space.
3. I change FOR you.
2. I KNOW you.
1. When v r hungry, love will keep us alive.

Which Friend are YOU?

the WAITING shall NOT begin...

not today. not tomorrow. never.

Beautiful.

Look at the two of you dancing that way
Lost in the moment and each others face
So much in love your alone in this place
Like there's nobody else in the world
I was enough for her not long ago
I was her number one
She told me so
And she still means the world to me
Just so you know
So be careful when you hold my girl
Time changes everything
Life must go on
And I'm not gonna stand in your way

But I loved her first and I held her first
And a place in my heart will always be hers
From the first breath she breathed
When she first smiled at me
I knew the love of a father runs deep
And I prayed that she'd find you someday
But it still hard to give her away
I loved her first

How could that beautiful women with you
Be the same freckle face kid that I knew
The one that I read all those fairy tales to
And tucked into bed all those nights
And I knew the first time I saw you with her
It was only a matter of time

From the first breath she breathed
When she first smiled at me
I knew the love of a father runs deep
Someday you might know what I'm going through
When a miracle smiles up at you
I loved her first


-I loved her first:Heartland-

its fun. but wasnt all that true in my case...

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

such a 'i hope u dance' song... its beautiful. Sara Evans & Jim Brickman

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when its time to go home
May you always have plenty
The glass never empty
Know in your belly
You're never alone

May your tears come from laughing
You find friends worth having
As every year passes
They mean more than gold
May you win and stay humble
Smile more than grumble
And know when you stumble
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

Well I have to be honest
As much as I wanted
I’m not gonna promise that cold winds won't blow
So when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

and this..... and everything else.

this is how much i like it... thanks :)

bloG

i read my entire blog today. feels... nice. in a weird way. wats cool abt it is that only i know wat some of the posts mean or who and what im referring to :)

Once upon a long time ago...

It is the imperfection that made it all so beautiful. and i was really happy.

Little Bit Nervous

Turnaround,
Every Now And Then I Get A Little Bit Lonely And You're Never Coming Round
Every Now And Then I Get A Little Bit Tired Of Listening To The Sound Of My Tears
Every Now And Then I Get A Little Bit Nervous That The Best Of All The Years Have Gone By
Every Now And Then I Get A Little Bit Terrified And Then I See The Look In Your Eyes
Bright Eyes, Every Now And Then I Fall Apart
Bright Eyes, Every Now And Then I Fall Apart

And I Need You Now Tonight
And I Need You More Than Ever
And If You'll Only Hold Me Tight
We'll Be Holding On Forever
And We'll Only Be Making It Right
Cause We'll Never Be Wrong Together
We Can Take It To The End Of The Line
Your Love Is Like A Shadow On Me All Of The Time (all Of The Time)
I Don't Know What To Do And I'm Always In The Dark
We're Living In A Powder Keg And Giving Off Sparks
I Really Need You Tonight
Forever's Gonna Start Tonight

Once Upon A Time I Was Falling In Love
But Now I'm Only Falling Apart
There's Nothing I Can Do
A Total Eclipse Of The Heart
Once Upon A Time There Was Light In My Life
But Now There's Only Love In The Dark
Nothing I Can Do
A Total Eclipse Of The Heart

Turnaround,
Every Now And Then I Get A Little Bit Restless And I Dream Of Something Wild
Every Now And Then I Get A Little Bit Helpless And I'm Lying Like A Child In Your Arms
Every Now And Then I Get A Little Bit Angry And I Know I've Got To Get Out And Cry
Every Now And Then I Get A Little Bit Terrified But Then I See The Look In You Eyes
Bright Eyes, Every Now And Then I Fall Apart
Bright Eyes, Every Now And Then I Fall Apart

enuf. seriously enuf.

cos no one really gives a DAMN in the end. when it really matters.

.................

you bring out the BEST & the BEAST in me.

1100011101

Nothing ELSE matters

Hanging by a moment...

why god? why ME?

03+07+23

: )

two cool words

1. cadence
2. skype

Dramatic adaptaion from Diary of Anne Frank. Dramatised by Francis Goodrich and Albert Hackett

Ann:

“Look peter the sky what a lovely, lovely day! Aren’t the clouds beautiful? You know what I do when it seems as if I couldn’t stand being cooped up for one more minute? I think myself out. I think myself on a walk in the park where I used to go with Pim.Where the jonquills and the crocus and the violets grow down the slopes. You know the most wonderful part of thinking yourself out? You can have it anywhere you like. You can have roses and violets and chrysanthemums all blooming at the same time… it’s funny I used to take it all for granted… and now I’ve gone crazy about everything about nature haven’t you?

I wish you had a religion Peter. Oh, I don’t mean you have to be orthodox or believe in heaven and hell and purgatory and things… I just mean some religion. It doesn’t matter what. Just to believe in something. When I think of all that’s out there, the trees, the flowers and sea gulls and when I think of the dearness of you Peter and goodness of the people we know. Mr. Kraler, Miep, Dirk, the vegetable man. All risking their lives for us everyday… when I think of these good things I’m not afraid anymore. I find myself and god and I…

We’re not the only people that’ve had to suffer. There’ve always been people that’ve had to. Sometimes one race sometimes another… and yet.

I know its terrible trying to have any faith, when people are doing such horrible. But you what I sometimes I think. I think that the world may be going through a ‘Phase’. The way I was with mother. It’ll pass maybe hundreds of years, but someday… I still believe inspite of everything that people are really good at heart.

But Peter If you’d only look at it as a part of a great pattern… That we’re just a little a minute in the life. Listen to us going at each other like a couple of stupid grownups! Look at the sky now isn’t it lovely?""

If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty.

woooooooooooooooow!!!

this song; the opera sort of singing.. it does something to me.. every time i listen to it.

I used to think that i was strong
I realise now i was wrong
Cause everytime i see your face
My mind becomes an empty space
And with you lying next to me
Feels like i can hardly breathe

I close my eyes
The moment i surrender to you
Let love be blind
Innocent
and tenderly true
So lead me through tonite
But please turn out the light
Cause im lost everytime i look at you

And in the morning when you go
Wake me gently so ill know
That loving you was not a dream
And whisper softly what it means to be with me
Then every moment we're apart
Will be a lifetime to my heart....

horizon

...where sky and earth meet. they never really do actually.

if only

if there's SOME magic in this world... may it put it all back together...

sometimes u work so hard to achieve so much in life... and at another moment u sit down and u realise that the ONLY thing u ever wanted was to be just HAPPY. somehow it just doesn't feel right wen u have to work so hard for it.

hi5

officially annoys me.

Life as a house...

do i still love you?
absolutely.
there's not a doubt in my mind
through my anger, my ego...
i always faithful in my love for you.
that if i made you doubt it...
that is the great mistake of a life full of mistakes.
the truth doesn't let us free robin
i can tell you i love you...
as many times you can stand to hear it...
and all that does, the only thing...
is remind us...
love is not enough.
not even close.

Nice one

really like Vonda shepard's 'what becomes of a broken heart'.. thought the lyrics are way too pathetic to blog about.. my blog is also getting really depressing now.. aiyo i think i need a paradigm shift real soon.

AOOM Brilliento!

screwed up in style. good start for the 3rd year.. inspiring!

CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS??

Paris Hilton wants to patent "That's HOT"! That's sooo.. oh never mind!

^%$**

how many times does it have to happen to you before you decide to SHUT UP and STAY AWAY??